NYC

i have alot of stuff i need to post !

before elysium

Peligro gave me the name for the book last night.. It suits it perfectly..

before elysium

NYC

Ill be going to NYC soon for 2 weeks. Ill be documenting the entire trip. What i seek to find im not sure. I've been lost lately. well, since august..I cant sleep at home. I find myself drivin to work at 5 in the morning to get some sleep before work.

My surroundings seem to decieve me. Everything reminds me of her. I paint and think of only her. I write and the only thing that fills my blank pages are thoughts and memories of the time spent with her. I've been working on a letter for about 4 months now. Everytime i see it i rewrite it. Take certain things out and add certain things in. I look like a bum off the street... I havent shaved in months. The more time passes the more its an addiction to paint and write in this journal. It's addicting. All day i think about it. Everything relates to it. Is there a way to ask forgiveness ? Does forgiveness exist for what has happened between us ? who knows.

i just want to go home, but that place no longer exist.

For the few that read this stay tuned.. many things to come.

- efangel

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Sunday Morning

Awesome sunday spent with Christie at the studio

Some recent photogrpahy

This is the lovely Christie Bulnes

Some GRODY fun...great hair huh

landing on twigs

boom boom said the wild free bird,

its time to wake up and work for nothing,

but he knows not what i do,

its been 4 days since i've felt a warm bed,

seems a lifetime since a felt a warm embrace,

all i do i create fake images of a lieing truth,

where is she that pretty soul, that strong soul,

such a strong soul all the angels know what she does

chirp said the bird,

and this is how i knew it was a she was bringing me,

a message from the past,

birds only speak in vowels,

what does it want to say,

yes i could smell the salt of the ocean but not her hair

and all is black

the bird left