thought of you

Lately all i could hear is poetry.. all i see is what Ernest Hemingway writes in his blank pages. His love of words is almost exploitive. I dream dreams of days past. When nothing really mattered except waking up and seeing her face. Seeing her smile and holding her in my arms. I miss you...and i have everyday since i lost saw you... This reminded me of a recuring dream im having.. with you

Shake dreams from your hair
My pretty child, my sweet one.
Choose the day and choose the sign of your day
The day's divinity
First thing you see.
A vast radiant beach in a cool jeweled moon
Couples naked race down by it's quiet side
And we laugh like soft, mad children
Smug in the wooly cotton brains of infancy
The music and voices are all around us. Choose they croon the Ancient Ones The time has come again Choose now, they croon Beneath the moon Beside an ancient lake Enter again the sweet forest Enter the hot dream Come with us Everything is broken up and dances.

- Jim Morrison

Burnt umber studies

I started a study today for my next painting. Started with just a burnt umber sketch but the drawing grew so much i kept it at just burnt umber. looks pretty rad and i think ima do more of these.. this one only too me like 3-4 hours. also what i liked about it is thats a real study of anatomy. In other full color studies i see that i dont give much thought to the anatomy cuhz im so concentrated on color and temperature. trying to get the mixes right. So this was a faster so efficient i guess learning process. although the full color study is still essential and prob my next step i think this is another step added to my process.....

paint

Paint again has become a refuge for me.. in it i find solace. I find i cant sleep at night. Thoughts and regrets haunt my every thought. The note is almost done. How can i put words to something so deep and well.. no words can describe what i feel as of late. Days pass and suns rise as surely they will fall. I stare at the sun of dawn and the days first warmth floods the air. It smells diffrent. But i no longer feel the first lights warmth. It's been 4 days since i slept.

I've been working on this painting for a while now. There are days i don't even paint.. I get to

my studio and sit in front of it and stare. I stare and think.. Think of the past and i take to myself to those days. A happier place. When colors shined bright and the day started with enthusiasm. Now the colors are desaturated and the days start as the one before. They seem dull and repetitive. My first thought and my last thought are if i will ever see her again.

past few months

These past few months are a blur. Time seems neverending. Days feel like weeks and colors that once shined so brightly have become grey. I had to let go of someone. Someone i loved perhaps more than my art. For reasons i still dont fully understand. although its evident she has moved on, I'm still in the same place from when i last saw her. Lost in a vast dead space. Where nothing moves and everything resembles a better time spent. Alot of new stuff is comin. Maybe ill get around to digiting it.. maybe i wont. lets see what happens.

crazy

CRAZY... more IHUNTZOMBIES stuf coming soon..

second weekend in june

made some shirts and had a small shoot at the studio.. i think i fucked up on the mixture of the photo emulsion cuhz after crystalizing the emulsion seems bubbley or something as if there was too much water in it.. should seperate on its own though.. tis is one of the pic.. some more coming tomorrow..

CANON AE-1

I just picked up an old school canon AE-1 .. I figured if im going to be a somewhat professional photographer i should know every aspect of photography.. Same as painting. You cant be a good digital artist without actually knowing how to paint in real life. So i bought one off of ebay and recieved it about a week or 2 ago ? not sure.. but ive gone through 2 rolls of film and kind of excited to see what comes of it...